It was summer when everything started. New things in my life has happened successfully but it wasn't everything that came out successful. What else could of happen if it wasn't all about for change? What can you do to make things better without worrying? How I wish to not have to worry about anything but just to enjoy of living life. This is my life story! The story of how I survive from all the pains, suffering, and heartaches feelings each day.
In the picture, that was me when I had my next reconstruction nose surgery done on the summer of 2011. For this process, my doctors were building the bridge for my nose which was taking cartilage out from my ribs (right side). Along with flipping the skin down from my forehead was one of the process that has been done due for the bridge of my nose to be well covered and secured. The process wasn't as easy as I thought and wasn't as painful as I can imagined. The flipping of the skin down from my forehead was very painful. The pain was undefinable and it was terrible. My left eye shuts down as soon as they put the cartilage in and flipping the last skin down. The pressure from the processes made it possible for my eye to shut for a while. Swollen and sore were the pain I can never forget that day. My face changes a lot from the soreness but thinking about the pain wasn't in my mind that time because I know, to suffer was something. The yellow piece in my forehead is a medicine for my open scar from the surgery. The skin was taken out from there and my doctors flipped it down for my nose. As sore as I was, I was strong enough to fight the pain away. The stitches all over my nose were very painful. I couldn't think of myself being in that so much pain because I never felt that much of pain before. Before my surgery started, I told myself that "everything will be alright and that I will get through the pain." As soon as it started, I never imagined so much pain to be felt after surgeries and to be honest, it was very painful. Looking back all the pictures I have had from the surgeries, I have no words but tears in my eyes. All I ever said was "I got through that all and here I am, healthy and alive." Honestly, my heart aches each time I remember everything. I always thank God for everything he has given me each day I am breathing in this world. Because of him, I had my strength and hope in positive ways. My family were always been there for me and I can't thank them enough for all of them to be there whenever I need them beside me. Everyone I know stayed and prayed for me for my healing processes and that's how lucky I am. I wasn't alone at all. I was more thankful to have my brother Drew Leibrock beside me each surgeries I had. He made me strong too and he stayed with me the whole time. I was a lucky girl and still, I am now.
It took a while for the second process of my surgery to get healed. I was home for many months and all those days were the days I hope not to be able to be in to again. A lot of pains and sadness in my eyes were happening on those days. I always pray to God just to talk to him so I know that he was listening to my prayers and most of the time, he has listened to my prayers. But looking back seems so hard to do because all I ever see, were my body parts was being used to rebuild my nose. I always have tears in my eyes each time I think about it. As a result of all this, I was very happy that I got through them all and has survived. I was strong enough to be able to fight off all the pains. My positive mind has given me strength each day. God has a reason why he wants me to be in this situation, to be able to learn everything from having the hope and faith I needed for myself. Just to believe in him through everything he plan for my life.
